my how time flys

things never change in my life....they seem to stay complicated.
I have vow'd to try and keep my moods on an even keel.
tell me....guys or gals...
have you ever cried while making love
and what do you think caused it?

I think I shall come back more often...if you read the posts here from years ago there would be 1k questions for you to ask...maybe not. I can dump my guts here...not many stop by anyways

sleep...........shhhhhh

Time in a bottle with a hole in it....

How does someone rebuild themselves when they've been torn down to what their mind tells them is nothing but a worthless wreck.
Confusion reigns....chaos ensues.
Stuck so far between a rock and a hard place I cant breath.
My child almost killed my soulmate a little over a year ago..and ever sine then ..not only did my son break his bones. He broke something very deep..
the confusion since this tragedy took place is insane.
I think Im getting there fast...
All I do is pray and pray and pray...........

passing time

worship was good today. so much sorrow filled such a small building, but worship was good and God took it away.....for some forever for some just for a minute. But worship was good today.
I was tested by the asshole all day, but remembering the 7 hidden attributes I am to display...I made it...
I win.

its been to long since Ive been here....

Todays Day

Another Surreal day....but definitely feels Gods grace upon our family....
we have made it through half a month!

Surreal Life

Its been a long time since I've come to my blog...but I figured it was time to come back...time to come to the place I can unload.
Some of you that read this may know this story...and IM sorry ..but its coming off my chest again..

On July 18th my son ( 19 year old..not a bad kid*boggle*) attacked my husband, unprovoked.
He broke my husband Keane's collarbone. They put in a titanium plate and things were going well in his recovery. Friends and family helped us financially through july, aug and sept...but rightfully so we didnt think we would need help by Oct! He would be well ready for work by then! on Aug 25th while my 135 lb husband was sleeping ..the titanium plate broke..in half..rebreaking the bone.
The manufacturer of the plate, the hospital, the doc all went into "cover ass" mode..and EVERYTHING thats happened since then ahs been like a bad movie...
and now..
well ya see, I went back to work..yes Im disabled...but my friend has a company that cleans homes and she let me come to work for her part time...God bless her....but..it seems my body wasnt ready to do that..( for those of you who dont know i was in 2 back to back car accidents in 2001 leaving me with a host of injuries...two of which we4re my shoulders )
over the last few months they began hurting..but Im used to living with pain.....but this has now brought me to my knees...about 30 % range of motion etc etc..cant sleep...arms numb..went to primary doc and he has me scheduled to see a surgery dood monday....
said a lot more...maybe Ill go into that later....right now...
I am going to go try and sleep...
Blessings